hush is the hungriest fish i've ever had.

i am very aware no one reads this.
sad that blogger has been deserted.

anyway . got the pin out of my toe and i can now bend my foot and i am limping less. but i still look dumb walking into school every morning. but at least i can walk, i suppose. they said the numbness in my leg is permanent. he told me as if he knew it was all along- even before the surgery. kind of not so cool. this surgery had a lot more consequences than the last.

falling out of love. kinda hard when you sit next to him for 73 minutes. and how half of the time we end up matching in some way. for instance yesterday (friday) we both wore gray jeans.

hopefully seeing sweeney todd (again) tomorrow. god that movie is amazing. i was mesmerized since the opening credits. which were so amazing. and i'm still in shock that this is all tim burton + johnny depp + alan rickman + helena bonham carter + sacha baron cohen. so much amazing. i am saving up for the soundtrack. but i also need to buy lupe fiasco's most recent cd. and the x-files on dvd.

conan o'brien is definitely one of my favorite people in the whole world.
link to his strike diary:
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/19424657.html#cutid1
(too lazy to hyperlink unless it does it automatically)

well writing to myself. i must have multiple-personality-disorder (except not really..)

"of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world, she walks into mine. "

new years eve and everyone is getting nostalgic. everyone is promising themselves next year is going to be so much better. i hate to be so blunt but do we have to go through this every year? it isn't that significant to go into a new year. honestly please get over yourselves. resolutions don't last. they're for january. you can't pull that off.

so i don't know why i'm writing this because i'm trying to avoid the angsty post cliché. but then if it's not anger i write from then would it be happiness? everything is such a cliché nowadays. so i apologize if by the end of all of this i can't come up with something original.

personally i measure my years by school years. so this year in review (as of yet):
i think he and i have spent more time deliberately not talking to each other than talking to each other. and i'm losing him to everyone else. (oh god i'm getting into the cliché). and i realize how unimportant i am and how formally polite our 'friendship' has been. god i wish he'd call me.
also otherwise it's only been okay and nothing is ever exciting so to be honest i'm really bored and wish i had a life worth talking about.


"here's to looking at you, kid."

thanks for deleting it again, sam. not that you will read this.

everything looks perfect from far away

come down now.
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today i walked. a lot. that was a lot of fun i'm really excited.
still reading the fourth book.
stoked for the seventh.
and fifth movie.
watching a walk to remember.
being a little tired.
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sorry sam for not updating. i do love you.
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babies are cute. i think i could only handle one. today is beccy's birthday gave her her card.
not much of an update, but when i have more to say, i will.

lovelovelove