"of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world, she walks into mine. "

new years eve and everyone is getting nostalgic. everyone is promising themselves next year is going to be so much better. i hate to be so blunt but do we have to go through this every year? it isn't that significant to go into a new year. honestly please get over yourselves. resolutions don't last. they're for january. you can't pull that off.

so i don't know why i'm writing this because i'm trying to avoid the angsty post cliché. but then if it's not anger i write from then would it be happiness? everything is such a cliché nowadays. so i apologize if by the end of all of this i can't come up with something original.

personally i measure my years by school years. so this year in review (as of yet):
i think he and i have spent more time deliberately not talking to each other than talking to each other. and i'm losing him to everyone else. (oh god i'm getting into the cliché). and i realize how unimportant i am and how formally polite our 'friendship' has been. god i wish he'd call me.
also otherwise it's only been okay and nothing is ever exciting so to be honest i'm really bored and wish i had a life worth talking about.


"here's to looking at you, kid."